Weekly Weigh In: Week 18 (Belated....as usual)

Weight: 171.8   Loss:  1.2 lbs

Well after drinking hardly enough water, no veggies, maybe 2 servings of fruit, lots of frosting and cake from all my cupcake making, carbs galore, goin to zumba once,  I CAN NOT BELIEVE my scale. How in the world am I losing weight? I knew I was putting my diet aside for a few weeks with everything going on at the moment and have been prepared to see a weight gain. I might just be losing all the muscle I had been building for my slacking in exercise. Maybe I am seriously dehydrated.

I have been crazy stressed out, and skipping meals here and there without even realizing, so maybe that is why too. I deliver my last big order of cupcakes this afternoon....I can't wait!! The cupcake all turned out great though. Below are pics for one of my orders.

mummy cake pops

cat cake pops


I was excited to reach my 40lb goal and got a new watch! It fits great and isn't as huge as the other manly one I have been sporting!

Well.... woke up to snow this morning. Besides having to deliver cupcakes early this morning, I am enjoying being back in my sweat pants and hoodie (both way too big now). Our kids sleep in now (till 9am at least which is just maical!) Jake made us french toast, Logan is napping now, and Zoey is glued to Nick Jr. So happy to be with all my fav people this morning. I feel relaxed and good. Just going to enjoy our last Sat together in Balt.

ok. Jake is selling the pick up truck. Gotta help him make an invoice!

Losing My Mind, Losing Myself?

I shouldn't have taken all the cupcakes orders and cake pop orders that I did this week. I have 7 days to get Jake and the kids on a plane to Utah, I have 2 days before my family comes, I have 3 days before Jake's dad comes, and only 1 more day to have my family to myself in our home for the last time. This is the place I brought my newborns home. I darn near cried yesterday as someone came to buy our couch. Our first couch that we got as an excited married couple to be. We lived on that couch in our first 1 bedroom apartment...dinner, movie watching, crafting, cuddling... It was hard to see it go.

I wish I could just enjoy this next day, but I busied myself up. Big Mistake! I can't even wrap my head around everything I need to do. I should be wrapping myself around my kids and my husband.

Instead, Jake and I got into an arguement last night. I was upset. I wasn't really mad at him. I am just scared of everything that is changing around me. He wants me to be a stay at home and to be satisfied with that as my life calling. I also want to stay at home with my kids, but I don't want to give up everything else that fufills me. Yes.... I think being a mother is my #1 job. I want to raise my kids and teach them about God, about good, about choices. But, I don't know if it's the New Yorker or the type A personality, or the bit of italian blood in me, but last night it sounded like Jake was forbiding me to find a teaching job out in Utah, and I was freaking out about it. I felt like I was losing myself. I have worked my whole life, and not only just worked, but consumed my time in multiple things. I LOVE working because it fufills me. I love being around my students, around other adult, accomplishing tasks, and using my mind on a daily basis. I am so scared I am going to be unhappy and miserable making peanut butter and jelly everyday and humming Barney songs.  Here in Baltimore I am a mom, a teacher, a wedding planner, cupcake maker, event coordinator for my church. I feel like I am so respected on so many levels. I will lose most of that when I move.

I know I will love being with my kids. I love those little buggers. But what will I do for myself? I know I will figure it out, but right now I am just emotional about it. All of it. Losing my kids and husband for 3 months, then losing my job and my friends.

Uhhh. I just need a good cry and to write this out and then I need to move on with it........

4 Month Bandiversary!

I wanted sooo bad to have lost 40lbs at my 4 month mark but this morning it showed I was shy 1 lb. Bummer.... but then again.... Holy Amazing 4 months!

I feel so great. I am not dragging my feet to get changed in the morning, or immediately ripping off my clothes after work to get into sweats.

I even notice guys flirting with me even.  Trust me....they got nothing on my hubby!

I have been so absent to the blogland lately. The cupcake orders have been flooding in.....prob not the best timing with Jake and the babies leaving next Thurs. The wedding consumed my life for a good week and now I am just trying to recover while still being insanely busy! My parents are coming in this week, and Jake's dad flies in this Sunday. We are trying to sell a lot of things, trying to get some renters in for a few months to help with moving costs. It's CRAZY over here people!!

me tonight

This morning I woke up in a complete panic to find out it was 7:45am. I am supposed to be at school at 7:30am, and I live 30 min away. And so was the start of my day! Life is nuts, but things with my kids and hubby are great.... except for the coxsackie virus Zoey got while we were in NY. A nice high fever of 103 that meant being super grumpy for days. Zoey was pretty grumpy too. :o) She would get up 5 or 6 times a night and would need to be rocked back to sleep. Ug! Killer for sure! But gosh I love my little family and the little life we have built here.

Oh, I still have yet to exercise, and I haven't really been paying much attention to my food. Last time I went grocery shopping was over a month ago. We are living off our entertainment book lately, which means lots of fast food. Not proud of it, but I realize these last few weeks and these next few weeks will be so rare. I will have lots of time to re-focus once I am a lonely lady. I keep losing weight. I guess I never stop moving, and my band won't let me eat a lot. Thank goodness because it might have gotten ugly with such restriction!

I really hope you guys are doing great. I think of you guys. I am always wondering how you are. I will get caught up soon.

Off to watch Castle with Jake and hoping to get some.......

Weekly Weigh In: Week 17 (Wedding Week)

Weight: 173.0 lbs     Loss 2lbs

Wow! What a week! I just woke up to say a quick hi. I had my big wedding I was planning yesterday. It was a perfect day. The Bride was so happy with everything, and I had a blast. I will post more soon. 

Can't believe I managed to lose some weight this week. I haven't exercised in so long. I miss it a lot.

My band is pretty tight, and haven't been able to eat much of anything. I had ONE bite of chicken last night at the wedding, and then I was standing over the bushes for 15 min trying to throw it up (as the toasts were going on......people....the toasts took AN HOUR!) It never came up but after some good burps and a some fun sliming I could at least get on with my life.

I am so looking forward to spending some time with my babies and hubby today! Pumpkin picking!!! Two more week before they leave. I can't even wrap my head around it!

Hope you all are doing great!

Weekly Weigh In: Week 16

                                                                     Weight: 175.0     Loss: .6lbs

 The scale read 173.6, 174.2, 175.0 in a 10 min period. So, I just took the highest. It was too early to really figure it out. On my period, so this loss is GREAT cause I know it will continue to drop in the next few days!!

what.what.

You know you like it!

And done.