The Me I Miss....not so much

If you look over to the right you will see a cute lil pic of me labeled, The Me I Miss.

I am now 10 lighter than that "me"! So I guess I don't miss her anymore!

     The new me! 10 years older, but 10 lbs lighter! :o)

Weight On The Heart is the Heaviest

I don't know why I come to this blog to vent sometimes. I guess I feel safe here. I feel like this is a community that doesn't judge. I like that.

Some good news first.....

I interviewed and accepted a job teaching next school year. It's middle school which terrifies me! It's a little inner city, which makes it a double whammy. It's the school I mentioned before with the 9 kids in line for the principals office when I interviewed. While it's not my dream job, I am hoping I can make a difference to some kids and find love for them. And it sure helps that the classes are only 50min right?!

Bad news.....

Can't locate my tenant renting my house. Her phone has been disconnected and I ain't seen a check for June! Ug! Here we go right?!

Jake's brothers own a long boarding  business which they are horrible at running! Like I am talking they took everyone's money and spent it and then didn't make their boards. They are still making orders from 6 months ago! It's awful. So we stepped in to help, giving them the money to buy supplies to make the longboards for their customers who paid them. We shut off all orders coming in and Jake and I have put in hrs of going through angry emails and re-organizing their finances and repairing their wrongs. The only problem..... they are still the laziest unmotivated business owners I have ever met. They sit around and argue for hrs and get nothing accomplished all day. I want to rip out my hair. We found them an investor who offered them everything they want and they still turned it down! My heart breaks for them and their constant bad choices. They can't humble themselves and see what a good thing this would be.

Other sad news.... I am plowing through a who bag of popcorn with caramel. But I ate like 300 cal all day and just worked out and am down another pound so....sue me.

Oh, but to end with good news...... I am flying home on Thurs!!!!! Well, I am flying into NJ where my parents will meet us at the airport and take the kiddies and me and JAke will head to Diana's wedding for 3 days. So, it's our vacation for the year. Not exactly a dream vacation, but I love a good wedding. I get to see all my girlfriends (all my bridesmaids) and show off my 70 weight loss! and then we are going to NY to spend a few days with my parents. I. Can. Not. Wait.

I am going to try to get to 139 by Thurs. (I know the popcorn isn't helping!) I am 142 now, so I will just give it my hardest and see what happens! I have to say that when I was booking hotels how important it was for me to find a hotel that had a little gym. Last year this time I was stuffing my face knowing I wouldn't be able to in a few short weeks! lol.

Pictures to come soon of my great week in the east!!

Weekly Weigh In: Week 49 - Finally Beat The Plateau From Hell

Weight: 143.2 lbs   Loss: 2 lbs that I have been dying for!

I admit it. I was that person so infuriated with my plateau that I didn't even want to write on my blog. I didn't gain any weight....just bounced around between 148 and 145 for weeks and weeks on end! I wasn't sitting on my butt either. I was still working out 4-5 times a week and eating really well. Well.....until friday came and I was pissed at the scale and went a little crazy on the weekends and was back to trying really hard on Monday. UGG!

This past week I tried doing 2 days mostly liquids and got down to 143.2lbs. My dr gave me a stimulant to kick up my metabolism. I have only used it 1 day and WOW it makes me feel like I am on speed (I think, if that's what speed does!) Not sure if I can get used to that. Might try it for a week and see.

I do feel good though. I fit into a size 10 and med shirts. I actually wore a bathing suit at the pool all day yesterday. 

At H&M trying on Clothes

Can finally set the scale thingey at 100!

Anyway. I have lots of updates to write, but my bro is visiting with my nephew and it's time to play! 

Hope you are all doing great! I still read when I can. You all look FAB!

10 Things Thursday - Big Decisions Version

1. Someone asked me if I was preg  today! This has happened to be like 5 times in the last little while. I have a def little baby pooch (I guess more like a 4 month baby  pooch!) I wear a med top and 10 in pants, so I know I don't look fat.  Don't people know NEVER to ask such a question?! This might have offended me  in the past but I feel really great about myself so I just think it's funny and can't wait to start saving for some plastic surgery after baby #3!

2. Good News...  I got offered a job today...a full time teaching job for next school year.

3. Bad News... It's middle school. And when I was interviewing like 15 punk kids were in line for the principals  office! NOT a good sign!

4.  Jake and I are having this struggle between what is more important..... both of us working full time for a year to get out of some debt giving us the money to move out and get our own place, or me working part time subbing and being home with the kids more, but not getting out of debt and being stuck at his in-laws for a long time and struggling to pay the bills. We both are on the fence.

5. We want to start trying for baby #3 this summer, so this might be the perfect year to work full time to have better benefits when the baby comes. Jake's insurance sucks!

6. Do I want to be preg and working full time? Or would chasing around two toddlers while being pregnant be worse??

7. I have made about 50 lists and charts trying to decide what to do.

8. I would miss my kids. But I know I can still be a good mom with the time I have with them.

9. If I took the full time job I would be able to put $2000/month towards debt...compared to part time and $500/month.

10. If you guys could decide for me that would be great!

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Trans-porting?

This morning as I was getting dressed I was pressing on my stomach (wishing my extra flabby would disappear) when I noticed a hard bump inside my stomach. I literally saw my life flash before my eyes. I thought, "oh my gosh, I have a tumor". I had Jake feel it and he freaked out a bit too. I felt dizzy and nervous thinking there was something very wrong here.

It wasn't until I was driving that I remembered that I once had lapband surgery! Duh!! But my port as always been directly next to my belly button. This bump was 2 inches above my belly button.

As soon as I could I did some research and found out it was somewhat common for the port to move up as you lose significant weight. PHEW! I haven't ever been able to feel my port before and wow.... it's REALLY noticeable now!

Has this happened to anyone else? Notice the port trans-porting itself?

I am going to go back to being grumpy lady now. Don't ask my friends.....don't ask.