My Journey

Monday, June 4, 2012

Weight On The Heart is the Heaviest

I don't know why I come to this blog to vent sometimes. I guess I feel safe here. I feel like this is a community that doesn't judge. I like that.

Some good news first.....

I interviewed and accepted a job teaching next school year. It's middle school which terrifies me! It's a little inner city, which makes it a double whammy. It's the school I mentioned before with the 9 kids in line for the principals office when I interviewed. While it's not my dream job, I am hoping I can make a difference to some kids and find love for them. And it sure helps that the classes are only 50min right?!

Bad news.....

Can't locate my tenant renting my house. Her phone has been disconnected and I ain't seen a check for June! Ug! Here we go right?!

Jake's brothers own a long boarding  business which they are horrible at running! Like I am talking they took everyone's money and spent it and then didn't make their boards. They are still making orders from 6 months ago! It's awful. So we stepped in to help, giving them the money to buy supplies to make the longboards for their customers who paid them. We shut off all orders coming in and Jake and I have put in hrs of going through angry emails and re-organizing their finances and repairing their wrongs. The only problem..... they are still the laziest unmotivated business owners I have ever met. They sit around and argue for hrs and get nothing accomplished all day. I want to rip out my hair. We found them an investor who offered them everything they want and they still turned it down! My heart breaks for them and their constant bad choices. They can't humble themselves and see what a good thing this would be.

Other sad news.... I am plowing through a who bag of popcorn with caramel. But I ate like 300 cal all day and just worked out and am down another pound so....sue me.

Oh, but to end with good news...... I am flying home on Thurs!!!!! Well, I am flying into NJ where my parents will meet us at the airport and take the kiddies and me and JAke will head to Diana's wedding for 3 days. So, it's our vacation for the year. Not exactly a dream vacation, but I love a good wedding. I get to see all my girlfriends (all my bridesmaids) and show off my 70 weight loss! and then we are going to NY to spend a few days with my parents. I. Can. Not. Wait.

I am going to try to get to 139 by Thurs. (I know the popcorn isn't helping!) I am 142 now, so I will just give it my hardest and see what happens! I have to say that when I was booking hotels how important it was for me to find a hotel that had a little gym. Last year this time I was stuffing my face knowing I wouldn't be able to in a few short weeks! lol.

Pictures to come soon of my great week in the east!!


  1. Great news about the job. I know inner city schools seem scary but if there is a line outside the principal's office it sounds like they are supporting teachers and addressing issues. I think you'll love it once you get there.

    As for the business, you and Jake have done your bit to try and help but you can't bend over backwards for people who will not help themselves.

    Have a great time at the wedding.

  2. Well that's poopy. But at least you're looking fab! i saw the post before this and that shirt was so cute!!! You so tiny!!!!!

    Hope you got to 139! If not, keep truckin' on!